Yesterday, I ran into an old co-worker at Target. I hadn’t seen her in awhile and she’s not on Facebook (that I’m aware of). She was always so sweet and intelligent. Always knew right what to say. When I saw her, I knew comfort was in my future. She asked me how I had been. The look on my face must have said it all judging by the change in her facial expression and opening of her arms. I softly said, “I’ve been better…my father-in-law passed away.” She began to tell me she knew all too well what I was going through. In 9 months she’s lost 5 family members, including her mother. My heart broke for her. We are all fighting battles. Some others may know nothing about. She told me I have to look at everything positively. Look at the bright side of things. They’re no longer suffering. They are our angels watching over us, guiding us. I told her how his brother told me about how he liked to sing “Don’t Worry, Be Happy” in the car. It clicked. It slowly clicked in my head as he told me that. After he passed, on the way home from the hospital that song surfaced in my head. I thought it was interesting. Then when his brother told me that I knew that was him sending a message from Heaven, “I’m okay.”
I’m still struggling to find peace. It may take awhile. To be honest, I’m angry and don’t understand. It’s not fair. But, that conversation brought comfort. I’m not alone. I need to spend every second I can with family and friends; those I love. Life can become a blur. You keep meaning to see this person or call that person…before you know, it’s too late. Not a single one of us knows when our time is up. So, if you’ve been meaning to see someone or talk to someone, please do, before it’s too late.