I lost three people. Three. My father in law, my grandfather and my paternal grandmother. I found out my mother kept me from my biological father my entire life. He’s still alive and a quadriplegic. That was how I started my year last year. When will life learn that no matter how many times I’m knocked down I get right back up? One of these days I’m going to knock it the hell out.
Although because of these things I got to travel a lot, it wasn’t my favorite reason at all. It did give me the opportunity to spend time with our family and even see a friend I hadn’t seen in over 10 years. I even got to meet a couple celebrities. Life throws you curveballs all the time. I just seem to get more than the average person. Last year my department teammate went to jail. I now run inventory for that department all by myself. You know, the department that has the highest shrink of stores? That one. Life is sh*t. Life can also be beautiful. I try so very hard to remember this. I talk to God a lot. I talk to my grandfather a lot. I talk to my father in law a lot. Every experience in your life, whether positive or negative, bends you, breaks you, shapes you and molds you into the person that you are. Don’t let it consume you. Don’t let it defeat you. Stand tall in knowing that what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. By now, I should be immortal. I stay on my toes. Watching. Waiting.
Some days I wonder if the reason I spend most of my days behind teary eyes is that I’m trying my best to obscure reality for myself. I haven’t accepted anything that has happened in this past year. It’s hard for me to; it’s been really rough. I do have to say working 40 hours a week at (almost) my highest wage yet is pretty nice. Within the next couple of weeks, I’m hoping to invest in my first asset. Fingers crossed. Although I’ve worked hard, I may still need help.
I’m hoping 2018 treats my family better.
xoxo Kitty ❤